here are more words i’m donating to
the waste of time i spend on you
i lower a bucket into a dust dry well
searching for some new story to tell
but all i draw is this pebble truth
i long for rumor in place of proof
some mystery to flow through my hands
at least something i can’t understand
i hope someday you’ll think of me
but you were never one for history
you are that one note sung so soft
i can’t reach, i’m always off
so i try to catch you in my song
but every time it sounds so wrong
and like a sport that children enjoy
the men who play it are destroyed
when the game is over, everyone goes home
but i am not willing to leave alone
i used to believe
you’d hear this someday
as sure as the radio plays
i used to believe
you’d hear me someday
when i figured out what to say
i only wanted you to be happy
but i hate that you’re happy now
less than noble, so afraid
of what you’ve finally found
i used to believe
in signs i would see
that you were the one for me
i used to believe
in someday
sure as the radio plays
look i’m not trying to waste your time
i keep reaching for words like rifles
on a battlefield – but each one empty
i will play dead…instead
poets have said it better than i
the guilt of love …never to be
i’m calling my hope like a loose dog
it’s chasing you…like i used to
given the choice, i’d choose wrong
cut off my ear to buy your song
so it’s best that you stay away
that’s all i’m trying to say
the touch of her fingers
her hair in the wind
the smell of her showers
the feel of her skin
the sound of her laughter
the sight of her tears
her face in the moonlight
the curve of each ear
the look when she’s angry
that wrinkling brow
the look when she’s bored
like the world let’s her down
her voice when she whispers
her love (when she cares)
the warmth of her closeness
her legs long and bare
her eyes when she’s blinking
her chest when she breathes
her arms when she’s reaching
but never for me
when you told me you were going away
i can’t remember if i wished you’d stay
but i recall seeing words in your eyes
now trapped forever behind “goodbye”
it’s raining today, i’m safe inside
away from the crowd, with a place to hide
the silence reminds me of that day
i wonder what you were trying to say
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